My depression come back. I keep thinking the why, what's wrong with me, what mistake did i make, is it my fault? I been holding my tears for days. When shit happens, i keep saying that its okay. Everything will be okay. But i do know, that i'm hurt inside. I constantly ask, why me again? All the things happened surround me. Its hurt. It's not easy. I try to make it easy, but it's never. It's hard cause I never trust anybody. I tried to be opened but now, I'm closed again. I know everything happened for a reason. But, I don't know how to explain it. I hope I got passes through it again.
Entry after The best guy ever gone from my life.